wtf am i supposed to do i have nothing, 

yeah i broke your heart but you broke mine far worse than i ever did, i would never do anything like this to you and i carnt deal with it and your still going to carry on the same but why not i guess you are single but you dont know what its doing to me.

i mean what is the fucking point anymore

you say you love me then that should be enough for us

you see how hurt i am and your trying to be there for me and i know your going to carry on the same and i dont know how you can do that especially if you say you love them and after you have seen how much you hurt me.

you can do what you want thought, we are both single and i just need to man up but i have nothing right now, nothing to look forward to and all i have day in and day out is my own fucking company and that is just going to make things worse

you say you forgive me but why are we still like this then

i dont understand anything thats going on but all i know is that my heart has been destroyed and at the end of the day the only person i have to blame is myself, i started all this, im trying my hardest for you, im trying to better myself and make you happy, but you dont seem to notice how much i love you and how much i would do for you and that hurts.

i dont want to get over you because you are my soul mate and i can see us having a perfect future. but all im doing is hanging on for a glimpse of hope that you have given me that we may happen again and i thank you for that, but right now i dont know what to do untill that day and again its all my fault, im to blame for everything. 

all i can think about is where we would be right now if i was not so stupid. i made the biggest mistake of my life and all i want to do is go back a month and tell myself not to be such a fucking dick, and that it gets better but that is not possible so im just left wondering all the time

What I Do Know Is that i love you with all my heart

&

I Hate Myself